Artwork by Will Ferret
Sergei grimaced as he watched
a crow hop around with a piece of Naan bread in its bill. It fixed its shiny
jet eye on him and Sergei took a step closer. The crow ruffled its blue black
feathers and Sergei could see more clearly that it was not Naan bread at all, but a round disc of golden fry bread.
“Where did he get that?” Sergei wondered aloud. The corvid leapt into the air and flew west joining a
murder of crows that circled the towers.
No! Thought Sergei. “No no no!” he shouted, flapping his hands in the air.
Starting with the raven who had dropped a
baguette in the cooling tower at Hadron, corvids seemed to take a particular
delight in dropping objects into the towers. Rocks, marbles cherry pits—even
pieces of yellow jacket nest complete with hornets. If the cooling towers shut
down so would the super collider, and during a run, it might spell a
catastrophic disaster.
“Dammit,” he said tapping at
his holo watch. Fifteen minutes until run start.
Of course they had screens.
But the screens had quickly gummed up with detritus. And in one case the whole
screen had dropped down into a tower and caused a run halt for two weeks.
Jupiter Ring was a bigger, better, faster super collider than Hadron but it still had some of its more
primitive technology subject to the whims of birds. The crows stirred the air
with fury, around and around until watching made Sergei dizzy with despair and
he glanced at the ground to look away. But on the sandy soil there was a
glinting that caught his attention. He looked nervously around to see if any
wiredog drones were viewing him, and then sort of nonchalantly bent down like
he was tying his shoe.
The best and worst part of
the company uniform were tie shoes instead of slip ons. Dark blue shirt, with
yellow stripes, and Jupiter symbol on the right pocket, jeans and high top
chucks. He always felt like he was in a Cub Scout uniform. But it was
comfortable and the tech dudes liked it because they never had to bother with
choosing an outfit for the day. It was always the same outfit. Miles of royal
blue and yellow thick cotton shirts. The chucks needing tying gave him an
excuse to bend down. He fumbled at his laces, brushed some sand away on the
ground and unearthed a tiny tan jasper arrowhead that looked as if it had just
been newly knapped.
Surrounding the arrowhead were several red white heart crow beads. More Indian artifacts, he puzzled, or some techie’s joke? This was his third find if you didn’t count the fourth—the colored porcupine quill pendant. And he did not count it because it was his. It was mandatory for him to turn in and report all anomalies. But this one, he secretly kept for himself. Each time he found an artifact, surrounding it was a handful of red white heart beads. Why? What does it mean? He wondered. He picked up the beads painstakingly and put them in a plastic bag.
Surrounding the arrowhead were several red white heart crow beads. More Indian artifacts, he puzzled, or some techie’s joke? This was his third find if you didn’t count the fourth—the colored porcupine quill pendant. And he did not count it because it was his. It was mandatory for him to turn in and report all anomalies. But this one, he secretly kept for himself. Each time he found an artifact, surrounding it was a handful of red white heart beads. Why? What does it mean? He wondered. He picked up the beads painstakingly and put them in a plastic bag.
He heard before he saw the
security drone buzz overhead and stood up quickly. It wasn’t coming toward him
and he shaded his eyes to watch it fly straight at the corvids. That’s not the way
to do it, he thought angrily and clenched his hand that held the
arrowhead. Bad idea. Instantly the
razory edge of stone sliced a smile shaped cut on his thumb. “No!” he shouted at the sting of the cut, and “No no no!” at the drone. Ruby droplets of blood soaked into the
sand at his feet.
In seconds the crows had
savagely attacked the drone with a seemingly gleeful menace. Sergei winced as
shattered plastic pieces of it tumbled through the air and fell directly into
the tower.
“Dammit,” he said, as the klaxon went off on his wrist band. Ten
minutes and counting until the run.
He pocketed the arrowhead and
sucked the blood from his thumb as he hurried to his sharc, the sonic
hover air resonating craft that he used to patrol the town of Jupiter Ring.
Since it was so close to run time he took it off automatic pilot and lifted
off.
“Warning” said the snarky ai voice. “The autopilot has been disabled.”
“Yeah duh,” he said to it “I
just took it off didn’t I?”
“I hope you know what you are
doing?” said the ai voice in a doubtful tone.
Sergei made a grunt.
Sarcastic programmers are the worst. Why program in chit chat?
It's true, he was not a
tech-troller but a Gatekeeper who handled hallucination control. On the side of
the deep blue sharc were the bright yellow letters MTT, mobile treatment
team. But due to budget constraints there really was not a ‘team’; just him,
a roving psychiatrist who drove around tending the worst cases of
disorientation caused by the collider runs. At nearly the end of six years
Sergei began to wonder. Were these just brain wave hallucinations caused by the
intense electromagnetic distortion? Or was reality really shifting? Of course
he knew the answer, but the hallucinations had tended to get a bit more solid.
In other words, after the run they seemed to linger. Not like before when as
soon as the run was complete they shut off and all was back to ordinary
reality. Of course the one thing he was sure of was that during a run, people
went blatherskite crazy!
To compensate for this
erratic behavior he carried sedative filled airdarts, tiny little needles with
a light dose that he shot at his patients. True they were full of zpop, a
modified pesticide, but it wasn’t truly dangerous and it did tend to lay them
out and send them into a deep sleep so that they immediately ceased being a
danger to themselves and others and most importantly, as far as the agency was
concerned, to the super collider itself.
For everyone working and
living in the town of Jupiter Ring was an employee of the agency, whether a
physicist, a technician, or a service person hired to take care of the needs of
these most valuable employees.
As far as Sergei was
concerned they were all a bunch of nutters anyway, mostly Auties and Aspies who
threw themselves into their work with reckless abandon, and didn’t care much
about the social amenities of life. There were rules of course, no one left or
arrived without clearance, which suited the staff quite well, and instead of
calling the place by the name of JR Complex they called it the town of JR Tolkien.
Fantasy land. Casual relationships were
ok but there were no marriages, children, or pets allowed. Sergei called it geek
pieville because to him the entire inside of the ring both by arrangement and
feel seemed like three day old leathery pizza. The perfect geek food in his
opinion. Heck even he ate that out of sheer convenience.
As soon as Sergei turned the
aircar, he saw it, the lone black cat who wandered the facility. He stretched
and loped off like a mini black jaguar. No pets, but he wasn’t anyone’s pet,
just ubiquitous. The cat leapt through some invisible portal and disappeared.
He was also an anomaly but a seemingly intangible one. Not anything that could
be actually touched.
Like, and here is where
Sergei got really nervous, the Indians he was seeing on the top of the berm
over the ring.
These were Indians dressed in
traditional regalia. On horseback. They seemed to ring the entire complex,
mounted on the berm, and he kept glassing them with the electro goggles. Of
course they didn’t show any heat index, and so couldn’t be real. But there
seemed to be more and more of them and they lingered even after the run.
Ghostly images that rode or danced a strange ghostly dance. Before and after
the dance they seemed to be staring at the town, grim-faced and silent...and
waiting. But for what?
Of course that didn’t really
matter. What mattered was that Sergei saw them and this was a very bad thing
because it meant he was losing control of reality and would be subject to
termination if anyone found out.
As he banked left to land at hq he saw more of them and they were riding single file on gleaming little
mustang horses. As they trotted their long manes fluttered like silk flags.
There were mahogany bays and bright sorrels and pintos and blue roan
appaloosas, palominos and blacks; all sturdy ponies with quick stepping action.
But Sergei was looking for one particular horse, a pale sand-colored pony with
a black mane and tail, because its rider was the only one who could actually
seem to see him, Sergei.
“Delusional,” Sergei
whispered to himself. He was worried. An MTT psych had to make it six years
without an incident, meaning losing their mind, before a good retirement with
full benefits. He had made it five and a half. So far, the longest standing
psychonaut of the history of Jupiter Ring.
“You are losing altitude at
an unsafe rate,” the auto pilot warned him, “Please regain forty meters for safety’s sake.
“Come on, come on,” he said, trying
to find the buttermilk buckskin. “You gotta be there.” He banked the aircar forty degrees west and he was nearly face to face with her, or so it seemed with the
binoculars, and there, she looked right at him and made his heart kabang. She
was an old squaw with wolf colored
braids, slowly she turned her creamy buckskin horse and shook a twisted staff
at him. He could swear she laughed. Sergei began to sweat profusely. Delusions
were not real. They weren’t supposed to look at you.
If he went crazy he would
miss out on his full time span and end up drugged out in an assisted living
facility; lose the hefty stipend a full service would give. His mouth went dry.
The auto pilot was warning: six meters five meters.
What the hell? he thought,
suddenly punching all the buttons at once to gain altitude but the car couldn’t handle the fast sequence and stalled landing with a thump. He jumped out and
hurried off to the hq—he decided to mention them. Just in case.
Everything inside the
headquarters—floor, walls, ceiling—was fabricated of aqua blue bubbled glass.
It was like being inside of an iceberg that had calved in some distance arctic
ocean, but the glass had the purpose of insulating the workers from
electromagnetic waves. And it was excessively chilled in there to compensate
for the heat of the collider.
He strode into the director’s
office and slapped down the arrowhead on the electric blue slab of oval glass that was his desk. Behind Dr.
Johnson was an imprint in the glass, a sort of etching of a stick tree with
nine bent branches. Dr. Johnson has told Sergei once that it represented
nine dimensions. “There are nine, not four,” he had said emphatically. “If
other physicists would just see that, we would actually get somewhere instead of
going round and round all the time. ”
An antique black wooden ball war club laid on
its side on the desk next to the director. It looked menacing. Sergei stared at
the gleaming club. He had brought it to the office a few days before and was
surprised to find that the director had not put it in the file drawer with the
array of other Native American artifacts Sergei had turned in.
Johnson pointed at a run
holograph on his desktop.
“What are you doing Dr.
Vassiliev? Run is in five minutes. Get back out there.”
“Push the delay. Stop it.”
Sergei tried to make his voice stern and commanding.
Dr. Johnson frowned at him. “Are
you mad? Too close.”
The director flipped his
fingers dismissively, and turned back to his holo screens.
Sergei's voice came out shrill
and tense this time. “But the crows dropped a drone in number 3.”
Johnson squeezed his eyes
tightly shut and pinched his nostrils with his fingers.
“Are you sure?”
“Yes I saw them a few minutes
ago.”
Johnson switched the camera
on the inside of the tower, and there on the bottom grate were twisted bits of
plastic.
“Too late.” said Johnson
gloomily. “You should have gotten here sooner.”
“How? I took the aircar.”
Sergei was annoyed that he could not
contact the director by holophone. But such items were on rest for an hour
before and after run.
“The log says you took it off
autopilot, wasted an entire forty seconds of time.”
“God help us,” Sergei said in
a breath.
“Oh relax, I don’t think three ounces of flimsy plastic is going to make a bit of difference. Get back
out there or I'll have to write you up.”
Sergei threw up his hands, turned on his heel and headed out of the office. As he got to the door though he
heard Johnson.
“Is this a threat, Vassiliev?”
Sergei stopped and didn’t
turn around. “What do you mean?”
“Isn’t this blood on this
piece of glass here on my desk? Is it full of pathogens?”
Oh right he almost forgot,
paranoid propped up by p-tak pills.
“It’s my blood and it's safe.
That is not glass it’s an arrowhead.” Sergei turned back to him. “Newly
knapped,” he added to see if the director would react to that information.
Johnson rubbed his forehead
and donned a surgical mask and a pair of blue surgical gloves. He gingerly
picked up the arrowhead with a pair of forceps and put it in an analyzer cube.
“Where did you get this?”
‘The same place I got those
other things,” he pointed at the club. “I didn’t mention this before but there
are Indians on the hills.”
“Indians. Doctors Shudarhan
or Paati you mean?” Dr. Johnson's voice was cold. Flat.
“No, Indians,” Sergei patted
his lips and said “whoowhoowhoo.”
With supreme effort Dr. Johnson held in his annoyance and closed his eyes slowly while poising his
finger over the delete holo on his desk. Once pressed Sergei would be
terminated as an employee of Jupiter Ring. Forever.
A soft insistent gonging was
pre-warning of a run of the Jupiter ring.
“Don’t press that,” Sergei
pleaded. “Never mind. I’d better go.”
“Yes, I think you had better
Vassiliev, but report back to me as soon as you can after the run.”
Sergei blanched and cleared
his throat. “I will.” Inwardly he groaned. Don’t fire me.
He turned to leave but Dr.
Johnson spoke again.
“What tribe?”
“Pardon?”
“What tribe of Indians?”
Sergei had done research. He
had studied. “Cheyenne I think, and one Cree. An old woman.”
“Old woman?” Dr.
Johnson tipped his head quizzically, like a crow.
“Yes, on horseback and with a
blue saddle blanket that had a crow in flight painted on it.”
“Before a run?”
Johnson looked almost gleeful. There was something smug about his expression, as if he knew
something Sergei didn’t.
“Yes.” He hesitated waiting
for Dr. Johnson to say something else. But he had picked up the diagnostics
box with his gloved hands and was reading the specs on the arrowhead and a very
quiet humming began to erupt from his throat as he did so.
The gong was sounding more
insistent and louder now.
“Get back to work Vassiliev,”
his voice was hard and cold but he was grinning.
Being a psychoanalyst Sergei
knew that paranoia was not contagious of course. But as the doors closed on the
sharc he could feel the viral chill of it seeping in. He knew Dr. Johnson
speculated that the Jupiter runs were tearing holes in the fabric of reality
and that one day, another reality would replace the current.
Absolute pathology, Sergei
consoled himself. “No bearing on any reality of all,” he told himself out loud.
As the aircar lifted he
circumnavigated the ring and saw various technicians and service people run
about interacting with the illusions. A man firing a Gatling gun at a pair of
World War II bombers, two crane-like birds perched on the back blades of a
stegosaurus, a programmer trying to catch some red yellow and blue triangles
soaring through the air like plastic manta rays, a violet cat-headed woman
copulating with a black jaguar which looked suspiciously like a jumbo version
of the portal cat, a masked Buryat shamaness twirling in the middle of the town
park beating a drum and singing, and a gardener trying to cold cock an angry white
swan with a golf club. He frowned. Why were the gardener’s illusions always
about killing? He wondered making a note. I thought gardeners were all about
living things.
As he circled Jupiter Ring he
glanced at the mound around the town and noticed it was almost completely full
of ghostly Indians on horseback, encircling the entire ring. He flew over the diameter of the ring,
breaking protocol and made note of them. They were sitting cross-legged in
front of their horses on the edge of the berm. The horses stood placidly behind
them, manes and tails whipping in some kind of sonic wind. As he watched, the
interior of Jupiter Ring became a huge drum; a veritable ocean of hide, and the
Indians were beating it with staffs—long twisted staffs jangling with jingle-cones and fluttering eagle feathers.
He flew down lower and saw
the cream colored buckskin pony of the old woman. She pointed up at him and
cupped her hand to her mouth and shouted “Kachinas! Kachinas are coming!” She
looked completely wild and deranged.
Gosh, he thought, even
illusions have delusions.
They think I’m a sky god. He
snorted. But he realized quickly that she wasn’t pointing at him but at a great
huge black storm-cloud that was forming above him. A tremendous drum boomed, or
was it thunder—and the sky was blasted wide open with a spidery web of blue
lightning.
The aircar was struck; the
dials dimmed, brightened and winked out.
Sergei almost didn’t have
enough time to press the chute button, but he did, and then the sharc caught in
on a wind wave, and slowly settled onto the triangle of brilliant gold mums
tended by the gardener.
The storm cloud winked out,
the klaxon stopped ringing, the Indians faded, and the black cat was washing
his paws and gazing at him suspiciously. Then the chute deployed and Sergei was
covered with a bright orange blanket of nylon.
Sergei popped up the doors of
the sharc and climbed out, pushing aside the chute like a heavy orange curtain.
He was shaking and disoriented. He looked around and all was normal. Quiet
little sun-soaked Jupiter ring. Tolkien land. No clouds, no thunder drums, just
silence.
He rubbed his hands over his
face and shook his head, but as he pulled them down the blond duckling-headed
gardener was rushing toward him brandishing a dibble like it was a butcher
knife.
“You landed on my mums, you
jerk. My beautiful prize mums, I’ll kill you—you son of a bitch!”
But before he could get any
closer, Sergei darted him with the sleep gun and the gardener sank to the ground
in a slump.
He made a note of it in his
journal and then got back into the sharc and tried to start it up again.
It made a swift clinking sound
but the engine would not start, so he walked the three blocks to headquarters
to make his report.
One sleeper and one dead aircar.
When he got to the director’s
office, the director was still wearing the blue surgical gloves and mask. But
his face above the mask was painted half black and half red. He wore a crow-feather war bonnet and had the war club in his hand—on his neck were strung all
the red white heart beads Sergei had collected.
“Director?” Sergei said
tenuously.
The director ululated and
then slammed the war club into the holo desk sending chips of glass flying
around the room. Sergei covered his face and stealthily reached for his dart
gun. But before he could unholster it, Dr. Johnson hurled the club across the
room and hit him in the arm. The dart gun dropped to the glass floor. “Aho! You were right
Vassiliev,” he shouted out loud.
“About what?” asked Sergei
nervously, rubbing his wrist and wondering how to retrieve the dart gun. No one
had ever darted a director before. Could he? Was there policy?
“The Indians. I saw them!
Ghost dancers!”
“Here,” he said, punching a
holograph loader, and there appeared on the screen Indians singing and dancing
just as Sergei had seen them during the run.
“It has finally happened!” Dr. Johnson got up and did a little two-step
war dance himself.
“What has, Doctor?” Sergei
surreptitiously moved his toe closer to the dart gun.
“The realities have swapped
out! In just a matter of time, we will be somewhere else! All of us. At once!”
The holo came up of a great
tribe of Indians riding horseback around and round the edge of the berm.
“They are real. This is it. I
have made my great discovery. The god particle is a bunch of hooey. I knew it!
This is the greatest discovery of all time.”
“What is?”
“That the ring has finally
shifted reality.”
At those words Dr. Johnson
started fumbling with something in his lap. It was a tiny bow made out of
flexor rod and rubber bands. Across the bands lay an arrow made from a light
pen, and duct taped to that was the arrowhead Sergei had found.
Dr. Johnson pulled back
the arrow on the bands and pointed it directly at Sergei’s heart.
“But why point that arrow at
me?” Sergei spoke calmly so as not to excite the director.
“Because Sergei, those
Indians,” he waved at the holo behind him. “Those Indians were dancing the
ghost dance. The white man’s world is over. You are over.”
“Well you too then, director.”
“No.” Dr. Johnson shook
his head. “Not so, because,” and he brought up a life sized holo of the Cree
woman with the wolf braids. “This woman is my great-great-grandmother. Do you hear what they are singing?” He asked. “Do
you hear it? Let me turn up the volume.”
As he waved over the glass
top, Sergei bent quickly and retrieved his dart gun and shot the director—who slumped over in his chair.
But the woman regarded him
solemnly from the back of the buttermilk buckskin, and the words of the Cheyenne
were heard. As they sang, a great vortex of crows began to spiral around the
cooling Jupiter Ring.
The walls of the facility
began to shimmer and fade as the song reverberated through the entire complex.
They sang:
A'guga'-ihi,
A'guga'-ihi.
Tsi'shistä'hi'sihi',
Tsi'shistä'hi'sihi'.
I'hoo'tsihi',
I'hoo'tsihi'.
Tsitäwo'tähi',
Tsitäwo'tähi',
Hi'nisa'nûhi',
Hi'nisa'nûhi'.
Tsitäwo'mohu',
Tsitäwo'mohu'.
Translation:
The crow woman—
The crow woman—
To her home,
To her home,
She is going,
She is going.
She will see it,
She will see it.
Her children,
Her children.
She will see them,
She will see them.
A'guga'-ihi.
Tsi'shistä'hi'sihi',
Tsi'shistä'hi'sihi'.
I'hoo'tsihi',
I'hoo'tsihi'.
Tsitäwo'tähi',
Tsitäwo'tähi',
Hi'nisa'nûhi',
Hi'nisa'nûhi'.
Tsitäwo'mohu',
Tsitäwo'mohu'.
Translation:
The crow woman—
The crow woman—
To her home,
To her home,
She is going,
She is going.
She will see it,
She will see it.
Her children,
Her children.
She will see them,
She will see them.
With that last phrase the
whole headquarters faded and shimmered up like a shining mirage. Nothing was
left except a whole lot of sleeping techies naked as jaybirds, and the black
cat who dashed off.
Indians on horseback rested
their hands on their horse's manes and looked down at him—the last JR employee
still awake. The old woman pushed her horse closer until the flies on its
muzzle landed on his face. He wiped them away and looked up at the ride just as she extended her staff and gently
lifted the porcupine quill pendant up with the tip of it. She looked doubtful,
fierce and crabby. But she slid off her mount and pulled the blanket out from
beneath the saddle on her horse. It was the blue one with the bird in flight. She draped it across his shoulders, and stood back. It was hot, damp, sweaty and
prickly—and smelled of horse sweat. But he left it on. She remounted her horse and turned and shouted “Naetan!”* to the other Indians. They all laughed and
turned their ponies at once, galloping away and leaving him in the dust with
the prone Jupiter Ring employees who were starting to sit up. A flock of crows and ravens suddenly swooped by
in a buzzing of wings and cawing.
Sergei was already struggling
to put together a proper debriefing.
* old Cree word for Medicine
man.
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