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Monday, October 31, 2022

0c☨♁ber | 2♁22 ☠ Issue # 38

 

  Welcome to the thirty-eighth issue of the Freezine of Fantasy and Science Fiction. This issue would not be possible without the advent of artificial intelligence algorithms. 
     
       I'd like to take this moment to thank the following contributors and collaborators without whose friendly efforts this enterprise would never have seen fruition: My mentor in the generation and refinement of digital art, Charles Carter. Thanks for the help upscaling my source image I made in DALL*E which ended up as the official story image for Lewis Shiner's story here Odd Man Out, and for Inpainting the ERROR message inside the eyes for the Keith Graham story which wraps up the issue. And for all your assistance and inspiration in my last two years of learning the various ins and outs of the text to image sensation that is sweeping the nation and Earth. We're chasing after this revolution for all its worth and let me tell you it's a challenging and rewarding hobby to have. 

   Thank you to Lewis Shiner for giving me kind permission to access his Fiction Liberation Front site to borrow from this time around.  Yes, I was going to put together another traditional Halloween-themed October issue, when all of a sudden I zagged over to the sharp, shock of a short Odd Man Out. This story set the tone and pacing for what was to follow. 

    Thank you John Shirley for remaining an OG Freezine Veteran, I would say this latest tale must be at least your twelfth with the Freezine, but I might have lost count somewhere along the line, and I'm grateful you sent it to me because the story Please Accept This really threw me for a loop with its uplifting and hopeful redemption of a particular brutality too painful for anyone to have to deal with. Incidentally, the five photographs embedded within the text and which reflect the goings on of the story, were taken by the author himself.    

   A most sincere and hearty shout out of gratitude goes out to Jason V. Brock for submitting his excellent short story The Ancestors.  This one really has the feel of an older class of science fiction terror tale, the sort Groff Conklin used to be the editor of in anthologies published by Pocket Books, except with an undercurrent of contemporary tension that fits into today's headlines. The Ancestors is an effectively chilling tale reflecting the uncertainty of our rapidly developing era, and the Freezine is proud to have it available in the archives. 

   And finally, a great Thank You to Keith P. Graham, for being another OG Veteran here, with perhaps as many tales under our starry belt as John Shirley.  Your story the Girl with the Error Message Eyes, despite being written back in 2007 I think, before all of this wireless Blu tooth tech took over world wide, manages to resonate perhaps even more powerfully today, and I thought it made the perfect thoughtful closer to an October issue that ended up hewing closer to the spirit of what the Freezine set out to be in the first place. 

     Stay tuned here in the same place and on the same Bat channel next month, when the Freezine brings to life an old fashioned serialized novella from the public domain, as well as any appropriate stories that manage to find their way into our ever expanding fold.  Thanks for keeping it real and Happy Halloween to all, and to all a good night. 


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Sunday, October 30, 2022

The Girl with the Error Message Eyes






Mike Broman slowed down and focused on the girl sitting out on the rocks. His link was fuzzy and slow. Mike disliked this section of the Bay Road. The connections were always bad here. One bar glowed red in the corner of his eye. The link dropped as the road dipped down along the granite cliffs. Maine State Highway 187, it said on the map, but to Mike it was just the Bay Road, and the only way out of Jonesport if you wanted to go north.

Mike’s link buzzed with static and red warnings flashed. A small circle formed around the girl on the rock. It formed a fuzzy halo and the text in his field of vision blurred and slipped. The image returned as the road turned up the hill again. He zoomed in on her and the database search flashed a name. Marjorie Alleaux, from East Machias. Strangely, though, her GPS value was null.

Mike sped the little car back up to 50 mph and continued towards the edge of town and the Quickmart. He wondered why the girl was sitting out on that flat granite boulder, miles from anywhere.

Good morning, Mr. Broman,” a pretty young woman said as he entered the Quickmart. “The flounder is on sale today.” Naturally, the network had identified him immediately as he entered the parking lot, accessed his buying habits and fed the greeter with a script.

Mike’s link told him immediately that he was dealing with Karen Macklin, aged 38, divorced mother of three boys and a dropout from U. Maine at Augusta. “Thanks Karen, I’ll check it out,” he answered.

As Mike walked down the aisle, the Quickmart house software scrolled a list of sale items down the right side of his field of vision. There was a feature he could buy for his embedded node that would hide this kind of thing, but it was expensive and Quickmart was polite enough to keep the messages just at the edge of his vision.

A message scrolled along down near the floor. It was a news story about the war. A helicopter crash killed a dozen young men. Mike ignored it. He had tried to edit his profile to filter the war news, but headlines kept creeping in under other topics. Mike squeezed his eyes shut to avoid thinking about the war, but the news story scrolled by. It always happened this way. The link software misinterpreted his interest in the story and the headlines jumped up in a larger font. Mike had never mastered the art of not reacting to his link.

He opened his eyes and looked about him trying to think of something else. As he focused on a bicycle, the in-store software boxed it and the price and specifications appeared just to its right. As he turned the other way, the network filled his vision with other consumer data, keying in on any product that he looked at for more than a second. A link to a shopping guide that Mike had once accessed fired up alongside the Quickmart data, offering price comparisons.

A sales person walked up to Mike. “Can I tell you about the bicycle, Mr. Broman?” A young man asked. His name and stats flashed before Mike’s eyes.

Stop it!” he sub-vocalized to the node. The display faded, but it never turned off completely.

The young man smiled and waited for an answer.

Not today Bill,” Mike said and went to find the coffee aisle.

He found the coffee and some filters and then decided that he might as well check out the flounder. The flood of graphics and text across his vision was subdued, almost as though the network could sense his mood. He didn’t buy the flounder. He’d have spaghetti again for dinner. As he walked out, a salesperson offered him a bag and the total cost of his purchases scrolled from left to right across his field of view, getting in the way of finding his car for a moment.

On the way back to the house, the network connections started to buzz and the signal dropped once or twice along the stretch of road where he had seen the girl on the rocks. A message started to scroll, but it froze in mid-word and then garbage characters filled the bottom with his field of vision. It cleared almost immediately, and he passed by the dead zone. The girl was gone.

His house was still empty. Mike put the coffee on the counter next to the machine. The house subnet told him

politely that he had no messages and informed him about the show on TV that he wanted to watch. There was a credit card bill due in two days and a package had arrived.

The package was sitting on the counter. Mike did not look at it for a moment. He thought that it might be for his wife, Elaine. She had left a few weeks after Peter, their son, had been killed. She had gone to stay with her mother. The excuse was that she wanted to help her mother after the hip operation, but Mike knew that she couldn’t stay in the house where Peter had grown up. There were too many memories here.

The address on the package was to Mr. and Mrs. Michael Bowman. It had a USPS barcode but no return address. He thought that he might call Elaine, but if she wanted to hear from him, she would have called. Mike frequently checked her GPS. He could tell where she was at any time. According to the logs, no one ever checked on his own GPS.

The box was heavy and about two feet long. Mike shook it and it made no noise. He looked at the bar code again and this time his node boxed the bar code and zoomed in. The sender’s account scrolled across the brown paper as Mike’s mind’s eye looked up the shipping number. US Marine Corp, office of personnel, Albany, Georgia. It was his son Peter’s personal items. Mike did not open the box.

Without thinking, Mike glanced at Peter’s picture on the mantle. He looked away, but it was too late. The chip in his head caught the image, performed the facial recognition, and started to download the public data. Peter Broman, Jonesport, Maine, Age 19, Lance Corporal USMC, killed in action December 14… Mike closed his eyes, but the glowing letters still scrolled across his field of vision.

Mike ate some spaghetti. He put the plate out in the backyard for the raccoons to finish and went to bed. As he fell asleep, Mike’s link scrolled headlines, commercials, and commentary to a background of the old jazz from his archive. He dreamed of teenage boys dying in a distant and strange country. He did not know if it was just a dream or the link keeping him informed on the war news. He remembered seeing a girl on a rock. She was listening to something as she gazed into the horizon.

Mike had to go to Machias the next day. He drove up the Bay Road and looked for the girl on the rock. She was there. He slowed down staring at her. He wondered what it was like to hear nothing but wind and waves and see nothing but clouds. She looked up when she heard the slowing car. She waved at him, even though she could not know who he was. The chip in Mike’s head popped and buzzed. Mike stepped on the gas and went on to finish his business in Machias.

On the way back he stopped. The girl was gone. Little red warning messages blinked at the edge of his vision as he stepped out of the car. There was a roaring sound in his ears. It was static and noise, but it blended in with the crashing of waves on the rocks. Mike found a path though the primrose bushes and stepped out on the tumbled granite. He jumped from stone to stone until he made it to the large flat boulder that jutted out into the water. Roque Bluffs was just visible across the bay as a dark shape on the horizon.

The chip stopped complaining to him. He heard nothing except the wind and waves, and he saw nothing except the water and a dull red phrase in his right eye, near the bottom of his field of view. Signal Drop it said. It changed for a moment to a blue Acquiring Signal, but then changed back to Signal Drop. There was a moment of nothing at all and then a pale blue light scrolled a dump of hexadecimal across his field of vision. He blinked hard. When he opened his eyes, all he could see was the dark water.

Mike stood there, looking at the water. It was high tide and the waves crashed against the boulder, sending spray into the air. A seagull called suddenly in the distance and soared over him, curious about this strange creature. He watched it. Normally, sidebars would have appeared if he focused on it for more than a second. He would have known the genus and species, as well as an informational piece about the environmental impact of the declining water quality in the bay and the effect on coastal bird life.

The bird, however, was just a bird. It looked down at him, and he looked up at it. The gull, or tern, or whatever it was, turned and flew off to continue on its original course. Mike sat. The spring breeze chilled him, and he thought that he had a jacket in the car, but the thought did not produce a time and temperature icon or small weather map scrolling across the cloudless sky. He turned into the setting sun to catch a little of its warmth and was surprised to see a girl standing on the rocks above him.

There was no link to remind him of her name, but he remembered it anyway. She was Marjorie, the girl on the rocks. He had seen her driver’s license image when the link had looked her up, but he was surprised to see that she did not look at all like it. Her hair was a dark, but unnatural red, and she had dark blue and red makeup. She wore the disguise of some popular teenage subgroup and had the supporting odd clothes, tats, and piercings arranged in elaborate patterns that only another of her group could recognize. Her eyes glowed blue with yellow error messages scrolling rapidly across them.

Hey,” she said. Mike nodded. She stepped carefully over the granite onto the rock and sat with her legs dangling down over the furthest edge.

It’s quiet out here,” Mike said, “too quiet.” He added with a smile. She didn’t look at him.

I saw you slow down in the car. I thought that you were someone else.”

Who?” asked Mike. A large wave crashed against the rock and Mike could feel the cold spray. Marjorie did not move, though, and seemed to enjoy it.

Oh, nobody important.” Marjorie looked out onto the waves and watched the seagulls play in the wind. Mike did not know what to say.

Marjorie waited for the error dumps in her vision to clear. She said, “I used to think about people coming here, starting a colony. A quiet colony, far away from the buzz.”

Buzz, thought Mike, yes, that describes it. It wasn’t exactly noise, but there was always the buzz.

I know what you mean. There should be a way to turn it off. I mean, a way other than climbing out on this rock. How did you find it?”

I had a boyfriend. We were looking for a quiet place to smoke and talk and stuff. We parked up there and tried to come down here. He couldn’t take it and left.”

Too bad. I would never have thought of it until I saw you.”

There was a path back there, when I first came. I figured that lots of people would show up here when the buzz got too loud, but you’re the first.”

We should advertise, except that there isn’t much room here.”

Whatever,” Marjorie said, “I came here to get away from things. I don’t need all the stuff they feed you all the time. All the crap – I don’t need anyone else.”

Buzz, crap, Mike began to see things a little differently. He liked that word, buzz. The link could be annoying like a mosquito buzzing around in the bedroom. You could ignore it, perhaps, but it wasn’t useless. It was mostly good stuff, not crap at all. The feed constantly told you news about people and places and kept you up to date with facts and articles. It reminded you of appointments and dates. It organized things for you and remembered all the things that you did not have time to learn or think about.

Listen” she said, pointing to the water.

Mike listened. All he heard was the stiff wind making low church organ tones as it whipped by his ears and the crash of the surf against the granite.

The ocean’s got its own buzz.” She closed her eyes and cocked her head to the side as though listening to a conversation.

Dad,” a voice said. It was Peter’s voice, and it came from the ocean. The noise of the waves and wind combined into infinite random patterns and one of them was Peter’s voice. He was, perhaps four years old, and he was calling his father.

You can hear things when the buzz is not clogging up the air with chatter. In the silence, you can hear all the things that you would have missed. When the buzz isn’t flickering in your eyes, you can see things that you would have missed, too.”

Dad…” the voice called again plaintively. Even though Mike knew that it was a trick of the randomness of the noise he looked out into the waves, and he saw a pair of eyes, formed for a moment out of the dark silver patterns of waves.

They looked back at him, large and open and took him in. The little boy’s eyes turned into just more random patterns and Mike turned away.

He held his head down with his eyes closed, but he listened for that little boy’s voice.

After a long time, Marjorie said, “I knew your son, Peter.”

Mike opened his mouth and looked at the girl. He could not think of anything to say.

That’s why I waved at you. I knew Peter. I knew about you and Elaine. Peter and I used to ride in your car. It’s weird that you’re here.”

Mike got up and walked to the opposite edge of the boulder. He walked back and looked at her.

Mike finally realized, “You’re the girl that he said told him not to enlist.”

I told him that they kill people like him. The good ones always get killed. The link tells you about it every day. It tells you about the boys who get blown up and shot and hit with bio. They’re always the good ones like him.”

That’s why I brought him here, to listen to the nothing, to see the emptiness, to understand that the link doesn’t have to tell you what to do.”

He wanted to do the right thing.”

The right thing was to stay alive. The right thing was not to listen to the buzz telling him to enlist. The right thing was to be alone – alone with me.” She sighed a little but did not cry. “But he couldn’t take the silence. When the signal dropped, he didn’t like it. He wanted the buzz there to tell him what to do.”

They sent me back his stuff. I didn’t open it. Do you want it?”

No, he’s dead.” The words struck Mike badly. He wanted Marjorie to care about Peter. It made him somehow alive, but she had moved on. She was sad and alone, but she had moved on.

Not really, there might be letters in there.”

There are no letters,” she said.

Mike no longer wanted to talk to her. It was too difficult. He wanted the buzz in his ears and the scrolling banner ads in his eyes. He needed a news feed and a friendly reminder or two to keep his mind off things. He strained his ears as he climbed off the rock for another sound of his son’s voice, and he didn’t say goodbye to the quiet girl.


Elaine was sitting in the middle of the living room floor when he got home. She was sobbing uncontrollably over an open box and holding a bunch of photographs. They were of young men, not much more than boys, each with a shaved head and a large grin. He saw Peter there and the other dead boys of his battalion. They were throwing footballs, playing guitar, and mugging for the camera. Mike’s link picked up the date code on the edge of the pictures, and he knew that they were taken just two days before the rocket had found their truck and killed them all.

He put his hands on the back of her neck and rubbed it the way that he knew she liked. As the faces of the boys passed into his view, their names, ranks, and date of death scrolled over the pictures. The link was being helpful. A voice talked about the death toll of the war and an ad for flowers appeared and then faded from view.

Elaine put the pictures down and rubbed her eyes.

I miss him,” she said. “I can’t stop thinking about him. Everything is Peter. I can’t sleep. I can’t forget. I hear his name and see his face everywhere. I have to listen to all of these poor boys dying every day. Each one is Peter. I can’t turn it off.”

Mike rubbed her neck and her back, gently. He did it for as long as she sat looking into the box, which was a long time. He made her some spaghetti and put her to bed, but she didn’t talk to him again. He wondered if she dreamed about the war the way he did.

In the morning, they walked into town and had donuts and coffee at the corner deli, much like they used to do when they first moved to Maine. They did not speak to each other of anything important. Mike asked if she was going to stay at home now, but she didn’t answer.

On the way back, Mike said, “You know Peter had a girl for while.”

This got more of a reaction from Elaine than anything that he’d said all morning. She looked at him with her mouth formed to ask a question, but she didn’t say anything.

Mike answered anyway. “Her name was Marjorie. I talked to her yesterday. Strange girl, but she seemed nice enough.”

As though she hadn’t heard, Elaine asked “He had a girlfriend?”

I don’t know if they were close. She was his friend, that’s about all I know.”

Elaine put her head down as they walked, thinking.

She tried to tell him not to go, not to enlist. But he went anyway.”

She did not answer.

She told him that the good ones always die.”

She was right.” Elaine said.

Mike turned around and pulled Elaine along towards the car by the hand. “Come with me,” he said. They drove together down the old Bay Road towards Machias. When the crashing of the noise in his link began to sound like the water on the rocks, he stopped the little car.

Where are we going?” Elaine asked.

Mike led her along the path through the primroses. A young man with a guitar passed them going back towards the road. His eyes glowed pale blue with yellow error codes scrolling by.

How is it out there?” Mike asked.

Quiet,” the young man answered with a smile, “nice and quiet.”

Mike and Elaine sat for the rest of the day on the granite rock, and they only saw the setting sun, and they only heard the whispers in the waves.





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Thursday, October 27, 2022

The Ancestors






15 March 1970


     “There’s a story about a man who tries to revive a long-dead relative through magical means… are you familiar with it?”

   No reply. The doctor squared some papers on his desk before continuing. “Do you understand?”

   The man seated opposite stared at the doctor. He made no signs of comprehension.

   “It’s old. Poe or someone. Maybe Lovecraft. Regardless, the plot is suspiciously like the testimonial documents in your apartment,” the doctor went on, glancing at his scribbled notes on the cover of a report on his desk. “But your notebooks are written in the form of a diary, not like a fictional account. What does it mean? Some of the passages are bizarre-looking equations, or perhaps an extinct language of some kind. Both, maybe. We’ve had difficulty transliterating the symbols and glyphs in these sections. And they’re out of chronological order. Almost as if there were more notebooks, and different sections were written in different volumes, but we think most of them were lost in the fire. Are they a code, perhaps? A statement of some type?”

   No response, just the background drone of the air conditioning system.

   “There are a few places where you wrote ‘I’m alive!’ and ‘They stole our minds!’… then you make reference to your twin brother who appears to have died in the fire. And there’s this idea that you were both tricked into swapping something, but you make no reference in the remaining notebooks about what you were tricked into swapping, or who was responsible… Can you explain any of this? Is it what you believe or just a story?”

   The man swallowed but did not react otherwise.

   “You’re leaving us few options here,” the doctor intoned, sighing. “And your caregivers tell me you haven't said anything in close to a month. All you do is stand in your room and stare into the mirror.”

   Frustrated by the lack of response, the doctor leaned forward, his gaze fixed on the man’s face, squinting his eyes for any hint of understanding. “Are you hearing me? They also tell me you don’t appear to sleep and haven’t for weeks.”

   Nothing.

   The doctor gripped the edges of his desk and reclined back in his chair. The man blinked, slow and reptilian. Though slightly disheveled in his scrubs, his high-cheeked face and intense green eyes still had a semblance of intelligence under the thick crown of dark curly hair.

   After another few moments, the doctor punched the intercom button on his telephone. “Please escort Mr. Wingate back to his room.”

   After his patient was gone, the doctor updated his assessment:

   Still no improvement in Wingate. His affect is flat, unresponsive. By all accounts he still hasn't slept in more than three weeks. Discovered he is ex-military. Honorable Discharge. So far, no complications physically. X-rays aren’t showing any issues, and neither are the EEGs, though there appears to be unusual activity in the hippocampus and amygdala regions.

   Other clinical signs—reflexes, bodily functions such as eating and waste elimination, as well as general mobility—seem normal; basal metabolic rate and heartbeat are quite low. BP is low normal…

   The doctor thought for a moment, fingers poised over the typewriter keys.

   I've never seen a case like this. Checking the literature, there have been a few instances of this sort of response after trauma, especially physical torture. Sometimes drug overdoses cause this kind of dissociative reaction. A type of catatonia. Although the ER noted that a seizure preceded this, the patient has no previously documented history of such issues. . .

   Another pause.

   So far, still no pathogens or infections have been detected. Patient did present with delirium when first admitted. He kept repeating, ‘I’m alive… They stole our minds… I’ll get you…,’ and so on. He reportedly said this for several hours in the ER during his seizure before going silent. Over the course of the following few days, he withdrew more and more until he reached his current state. No luck in locating any living relatives, though, apparently, he had an identical twin. Not sure the status of that relationship, as his apartment was practically destroyed in the fire and only a few files and notebooks were salvaged. Could it be they had a fight? The body they recovered was so badly burned that dental records were inconclusive for identification purposes, but the M.E. theorized it could be him… or not. The remains were likely a male based on the pelvic measurements, but there were other issues. There might have been pets or something that were also killed in the blaze, as other bones that were decidedly not human were commingled with the remains at the scene.

   The doctor checked his watch.

   He knows to eat and use the lavatory. The mirror fascination manifested three weeks ago, coincident with the insomnia. . . Will monitor for another 48 hours before escalating.

   Pushing away from his desk, Dr. Ward had no reason to believe his life was in danger. He rose from his chair, suddenly feeling much older than his fifty years. He stretched, walked to the coat closet, donned hat, gloves, topcoat. He snapped out the light, locked the door to his office, walked to the elevator. He was looking forward to bridge at the Tomerlins with Lydia and the Beaumonts.

   Outside, the night was clear and crisp, the stars subdued by high gossamer clouds. He inhaled the cold air and was immediately transported back to those endless Midwestern autumns of his youth, replete with the earthy smell of firewood char, bright orange pumpkins, the languorous tumult of falling leaves. His mind drifted as he ambled to the carpark. Peculiar how those days—so distant in time—were still so vivid in his mind’s eye. Like yesterday.

   The drive home was uneventful, traffic light. As he pulled off the rain-sheened street to his house and into the garage, he noted that everyone was already parked in front. The warm glow from the living room window radiated softly through the autumnal gloom, golden and inviting. The trip from his office afforded time to daydream; some of his greatest insights and breakthroughs had presented themselves during those meditative intervals away from tedious paperwork and the day-to-day obligations of co-worker interactions. As the radio murmured in the background, on-and-off syncing with the wipers, he once again found himself absent-mindedly puzzling over his strange patient, Mr. Wingate, as the more mundane cares of the day melted away: …Still, Wingate has a strange familiarity… I guess he reminds me of that subject we tested under MK-Ultra a few years ago—during the ‘Switch Program.’ Probably just a coincidence… But that fellow would have to be older after all these years. An odd one, too, though there is a resemblance. He was one of the ones we lost track of just as our funding was pulled by CIA. What was his damn name…?

   He shook his head, opened the car door. He knew that after a lively dinner the games would begin, and he was excited to completely leave work behind, at least for the rest of the evening.

   As he entered the house from the side door separating the garage from the mudroom, Dr. Ward had no idea the horrors awaiting him in the next few hours. . . And he never would have believed—had anyone told him—that he and everyone he knew, in fact everything, would cease to exist as he understood them shortly afterward. 


15 March 1946


   He had decided that evil was a moral evaluation, a construct. There was no such actual state; it was a conception that people fell back on when they could not explain terrible people, events, or circumstances. The idea itself vibrated with religious overtones not useful to the comprehension of willful transgressions: It’s a dodge, an excuse for negative conduct. There are only good and bad behaviors, good and bad actions. Considered in toto, these actions may often be deemed “evil” or “divine”; in reality no such conditions exist. To explain is not necessarily to excuse, though people confuse these ideas; the notion of “evil” leaves no way to explain horrific outcomes, only to remark on them.

   As Joseph Ward watched the trials in Nuremberg unfold, he was taken not only with the so-called “banality of evil” on display, but also this idea that evil was extant in the first place. The men he heard testifying were not monsters, far from it. They may have occupied the grotesque hinterlands of humanity; may have been the progeny of hateful, twisted ideologies; even exhibited a loathsome willingness to subvert their egos to the personality of so slight a man as Hitler. In truth, none of them seemed quite human, either. But certainly, none were evil; they were simply very bad people who chose mayhem and violence to impose their will on others for short-term glory, enrichment, and, sometimes, purely sadistic reasons. These were men—and in some disturbing examples, women—of action. Terrible thoughts alone were not enough, he decided; creating a ghost requires action. To that end, speaking of an “evil act” was different; the phrase is not an evaluation of the action itself, merely a descriptor. And without an act, there was no crime, no injustice, no horror.

   Just a few days prior, Joseph had read with considerable interest about Winston Churchill’s assertion regarding the Soviets—that they were in fact closing ranks, that an Iron Curtain was descending across the Continent. This was especially troubling as he observed the Nazi defense play out from his bench seat in Courtroom 600 of the Nuremberg Palace of Justice. The International Military Tribunal had made its case spectacularly, he felt, but the politics of the moment seemed to outpace the looming history. Just yesterday, March 14th, Stalin had seemed emboldened in an interview with Pravda, rinsing his bloody hands of responsibilities to come, even suggesting that the U.S. and England were like the Nazis. Between the expansion of this frigid hostility and the recent public debut of the U.S. government’s computer marvel ENIAC, Joseph felt a growing personal unease—the future appeared to have arrived with shocking speed and impact, disrupting life, changing perspectives, realigning alliances in strange and unanticipated ways.

   The old order was dead.



   Later, as twilight dimmed the world outside his hotel room, Joseph stared from the dingy courtyard window at the broken shells of buildings and the crater-blackened streets below. There was still patchy snow on the ground in Nuremberg, but spring was very near. In the distance he heard thunder; the room was stuffy, musty smelling. He had no appetite after the horrific courtroom testimonies; his studies were due to resume in the United States in May, and he was scheduled to return home in a few days. Nuremberg had been a distraction from mother’s death in January, but it would be comforting to go back. The insanity and desperation of post-war Europe depressed him.

   He opened his notebook and started writing, continuing his thoughts from the courtroom:

   To describe someone as “evil” is an equivocation; it’s a way to avoid dealing with a scenario or person that is very unpleasant or disturbing. Often the person responsible for these sorts of horrors is not “evil” but mentally deranged in a social, sometimes clinical, sense. “Crazy, not insane,” as my professor explained it; not the same as the legal definition of “insanity” which must pass the so-called M'Naghten Rule. Perhaps they're sociopaths, this is quite often rooted in brain damage, for example, or just callous. Inured to unacceptable levels of violence, which is more of a socialization problem.

   He snapped on the table lamp.

   “Evil” is not required in any of these instances. Are terrorists “evil”? No. Are they insane (leaving aside political or religious brainwashing and radicalization for a moment)? No. Yet they do commit evil acts. Same for criminals committing horrendous violence.

   But depravity… depravity does not require religion, superstition, or supernaturalism to explain it, only the processes of ritual to codify it or the cloaks of tradition to hide behind. It doesn’t need anything to explain it; people are not born evil or depraved: They acquire these characteristics. Some are simply miswired in their brains or are gradually exposed, slowly broken down, and develop a psychic callus as they attempt to treat themselves. Some become more and more violent after repeated exposure; others are more resistant to positive intervention, therefore more susceptible to negative influences and experiences. Still others become lost in the folds and recesses of a deteriorating brain, the mind increasingly untethered from reality—from a pathway to the self, to identity.

   It was dark outside. Joseph could just make out a few ethereal figures wending their way across the street. The storm caused the skeletons of bushes to scratch at the window. He was feeling tired now.

   There is no “moral” part of the brain; that is purely a mental construct. Individuals may be mentally, emotionally, or physically damaged by others—parents, lovers, friends. Plenty of extremists, Crusaders, even the Nazis, believed that God was on their side. But God does not take sides—or should not. God, it would seem, creates the circumstances where bad occurrences may manifest, yet looks unable or unwilling to control these circumstances. Rather than moral authority, the Deity instead exhibits moral indifference.

   So, what caused these people or groups to commit such atrocities? Belief did. They believed they were “right” to do these things, and that gave them the “moral authority” to carry out despicable acts on others. Dehumanization is a part of this process, also. It’s moral ambiguity… Ethical relativism. In some cases, there may be cultural or social reinforcers to confirm biases—even if only for a period, such as with the Nazis, or dire situations which may present themselves. But we learn first and best from our predecessors. Our forebears mark us with these reactions, these attitudes—actually their fears and insecurities—starting from an early age… not always on purpose, but more purposefully at times than we understand, I suspect.

   We build identities as we grow; develop a certain youthful idealism, even rebel against our upbringing… But, over time, we tend to lose sight of our goals and dreams for various reasons… excuses, really. We ossify in thought and deed. We acquire, and become paralyzed at the idea of losing our acquisitions… Before we realize it, we have become like our families before us.

   Joseph dropped his pen on the table, stretching his fingers. He thought for a moment, listening to the rain outside the hotel.

   But even in their flaws are our ancestors “evil”? No. They are, in many, many cases, simply people who think they are doing “good” for fill-in-the-blank reasons. Good, to them, may be relative, and depends very much on their desired outcome, no need for spiritualism or any other such explanation. They justify the consequences despite the means used to acquire them. Thus, I don't subscribe to the “bad seed” theory; all “bad” individuals and actions can be explained and understood, and we should learn more about them in order to comprehend how this seeming phenomenon happens.

   Also, people confuse extreme violence with moral lapse; sometimes it is required (self-defense, war, etc). It doesn't make one evil to do violent things, but then context is key; stripped of context, even the most understandable defense could appear just as untenable as any other offense. The inversion of this I describe as “elaborating the context”: Society often uses the stripped-of-context example as a pretense to rationalize why an overly developed response is necessitated; those who do horrible things never really believe that about their own actions; they can always explain and justify them. We must resist the impulse to simply say “it's inexplicable, it’s unfathomable.” Everything is fathomable, though not always pleasant. There is no supernaturalism.

   Anyone may become depraved, corrupted, depending on their given circumstances.

   Joseph closed his notebook. “Yet… that would take a lot for me personally. How can people get so lost?” He rubbed his face, bones weary, soul exhausted. “That’s enough for tonight.”

   He readied for bed. The lumpy mattress was squeaky and uncomfortable. Joseph had always found it hard to fall asleep in overwhelming quiet. As a native of the big city, he was used to the distant underwash of city noise; it comforted him. At some point, unnoticed, tiredness prevailed; his slumber was dark, fitful, disquieting:

   “How terrifying it must be. Living someone else’s life… They will find you out eventually… Do you ever get the feeling that you are an impostor?”

   His anus tightened at the question. “Before-before I became a professor, yes; before I regained the ability to hope… to imagine... to believe—”

   “Believe in what? We’re all doomed in here. Consider just how many species went extinct before it was even established they existed… How many are still undocumented and will never be known? Why should humans be any different? And how will you be saved? You must do what is required never to be discovered for the cowardly charlatan that you are.”

   “Who… who are you?” He swallowed; throat tight, dry.

   “No one. Everyone. Your past. Your ancestors. Your future. Your progeny.”

   “Why are you here? Leave!

   It laughed.

   “You can’t escape me. I’ll always be here.” 


16 March 1970


   Through the mirror, Wingate stared beyond his distorted, wavering reflection and into the deep past… and finally understood: It was not only alive. It was more than alive

   “A…ware.” His voice was garbled, its pitches shifting.

   And that awareness was shifting… Growing... Comprehending... Emerging... Now Wingate was shouting, his eyes bulging, mouth frothing—

   “Hold his arms! Hold his arms!” the orderly yelled, tossing his entire 300-pound bulk onto the convulsing man. A second orderly was trying to contain the patient’s legs, but was kicked in the face, sending teeth flying across the room to rattle like dice on the tiles of the floor.

   “Get him!

   “Alive! We’re alive!” Wingate screamed. His body stiffened like a man with end-stage tetanus.

   “Jesus! Get the doctor! Get Dr. Ward!

   With that, Wingate exploded to his feet, throwing the orderlies against the walls where they sagged in bloody, crumpled heaps. The stench of burning flesh was ripe in the confines of the cell, wisps of smoke rising off the two now incapacitated men from their charred, splitting skin. Wingate turned his attention from them, his fury now focused on a single goal as the emergency alarm blared: “WARD!

   Wingate grabbed his face. Under his smoking hands the skin was twitching, reshaping. The room was crackling with a hazy blue electrostatic charge, and the flesh on his arms bruised, blistered, while blood began to leak from his ears, fingernails, nose. The white scrubs he was wearing blossomed with bloodstains as it leaked from his pores. Strange, slender whips of flesh erupted through the skin of his arms, augmented by bony protrusions on his head, his hands suddenly as gnarled as an ancient oak tree.



   “My God. I’m on my way.” Joseph Ward hung up the telephone. He rubbed his temple in the darkness, abruptly sensing the onset of a migraine.

   “Who was that?” his wife, Lydia, asked, her sleepy voice syrupy in the darkness of their bedroom.

   “The hospital. I have to go in. Wingate is seizing—”

   “Now? Jesus, it’s three in the morning—”

   Joseph nodded, holding his hand up. “I know. I know. But he’s a special case. Reminds me of a subject from the Switch Program… Remember? That experiment where we tried to create the multiple personalities by feeding them synthetic drugs CIA cooked up? Spooky stuff.”

   “I remember when you were working on that project. Really bothered me. How could you feel comfortable doing that to people? I mean without their consent? I’m glad they terminated it….” Lydia trailed off, pulling the covers closer.

   Joseph looked down. After a moment he shrugged. “Oh, I don’t know. It seemed the way to go at the time. It wasn’t my idea, I was just following orders. I mean, nobody’s perfect, and we needed the money, the prestige of working for the CIA at the time, you recall. Things were tight, and they got a lot better with all that money… You didn’t object to that, did you?”

   Lydia looked away. Joseph swept his hand through his hair. He sensed her disappointment, and thought back on his time in Nuremberg, when he still had his idealism, the feeling that he was on the right side of history… sometimes, even lately, he was not so sure of that. Was not so sure he had been on the correct side of history in a long, long time. People change… they do what they think is right, and sometimes… sometimes it isn’t. Or they do what it takes to get ahead in life, to be taken seriously. And they try not to think too hard on the consequences. They tell themselves they ‘just need to get through it all…’ Does that make me a bad guy? An evil villain?

   “Anyway, Frank has already warned me to get him to open up before we have to escalate… or he might have to disappear. His words, not mine. Says the higher-ups seem to have taken a keen interest for some reason. Maybe he’s from another group they were tracking, I don’t know exactly.”

   “I thought they were all dead by now?” Lydia looked back up at him, eyes glimmering in the darkened room.

   Joseph pulled his pants on, tucked his shirt. His head was getting worse, but he tried to ignore the throbbing pain behind his eyes. “So, they said… it’s strange. Not sure what’s happening here, but I don’t want to get caught up in some investigation. And I’m not going to dig too hard. I need some plausible deniability here. And so do you. There’s a lot of ‘investigatory fever’ in DC at the moment, especially regarding Black Ops and so forth. I mean, we’re that close,” he pinched the air with his thumb and finger, “to getting the promotion. Frank wants out, and he’s recommended me. Interview went great. All I have to do is coast for the next few weeks and I’ll be made Director Ward.”

   Lydia watched him, bundling her nude body tighter under the bedclothes. “That close…,” she imitated his gesture.

   He smiled. A trickle of blood started down his lip. “Damnit!” He grabbed a tissue from the nightstand and dabbed at his nose. “Another nosebleed. Between the dry air and my allergies…” The blood stopped and he disposed of the bloodied tissue paper.

   “I’m sorry, baby. I hate that.”

   “Yeah, yeah. So let me go handle this.” He grabbed his keys, head pounding as he bent down to kiss her on the forehead. “My love. Back in a jiffy.” 


15 March 1996


   “It’s a real weird situation. Ever read about it? It’s a case study.”

   The elevator doors closed. Arthur shook his head. “No. Heard rumors, that’s it.”

   “They say it has some kind of strange ‘electro-chemical aura’ that can seriously burn you, even kill you. Burns other stuff, too, but only if he becomes enraged. Only happened a few times on my watch, and no one was hurt, but it made folks rethink the job. If you catch my drift.”

   “Really? That’s pretty wild!”

   “It is. The two orderlies, if you read about the case in the papers, had broken bones, burns all over their bodies. They both had to be committed because they seemed to have sustained some sort of long-term psychological damage. Couldn’t talk, unresponsive for a time. Eventually they healed and families took them home, but they weren’t ever right again. Each of them has passed on, but under mysterious circumstances. One disappeared, just left his clothing, all bloody, in a pile. Other one… they found his body, this was years later, mind you, and his head was gone. Like blown off. But there was no gun, no evidence that anyone had shot him. Just his head exploded one day, apparently. Case is still open on them, but…”

   Arthur’s eyes widened. “Holy shit. That’s very weird, man.”

   “No doubt. So, anyways, just remember, never turn your back on it. It’s dangerous. No touching with exposed skin. And ignore the weird stuff—it’s just trying to get into your head.”

   “Weird stuff?”

   Mark, the orderly, smiled. “You’ll see.”

   The elevator doors opened. A sign directly in front of them on the wall read: MAXIMUM SECURITY.

   Arthur glanced over at Mark. “Nice.”

   The two men walked down the long corridor, their heels clacking in the sterile confines of the brightly lit hallway. They passed several unused cells until they reached the final door at the very end.

   “How long have you been here?”

   Mark touched his chin. “Wow… over 15 years, I guess. Getting time to think about retirement. A few more years. Lots of people get spooked, but I take it in stride. Suit up,” Mark said. Both men secured their faceplates, gloves, and batons.

   Mark unlocked the door. “Coming in. Stand at the back wall, please.”

   The door swung open. In the room, a single figure was hunched over, breathing heavily.

   “Welcome.” The voice was deep, with a strange undertone Arthur could not quite identify. There was a rumbling quality to it that was multi-harmonic. “I am… aware.”

   The figure shuffled closer.

   “Close enough,” Mark said, pointing the baton like a sword. The figure stopped, and Arthur got a good look.

   The individual made no physical sense. There were weirdly shifting elements to its features; the visage looked almost blended together, morphing from one face to another, almost smeared as though caught in a timeslip, one moment solid another moment rippling and fluid. There was a disquieting element of shifting between masculine and feminine, human and non-human. Under the scrubs, its body appeared to be shifting in the same manner, changing and warping as though viewed through a waterfall. It cast no shadow anywhere on either its body or the floor.

   “I see we have a new keeper.”

   Mark nodded. “Yes. Arthur.”

   “Arthur…” the word rolled out, the polyphony bottoming out into an inaudible chest-rumbling sub-tone. “I look forward to your service.”

   The being spread its arms wide, and the lights started to slowly pulse.

   Then it began to levitate. 


16 March 1970


Police Incident Report


   OVERVIEW: At approximately 0347 hours on 16 March 1970, a disturbance was reported at the XXXXXX Mental Institute in XXXXXXXX, XXXX. The disruption involved staff and a patient, XXXXX XXXXXX. Mr. XXXXXX had been admitted several weeks prior as an involuntary committal due to disruptive and disturbing behaviors first reported at his apartment complex, XXXXXXXX XXXXX in XXXXXXXX, XXXX. According to staff at the Institute, XXXXXX had been a recently arrived tenant at the apartment complex, and there was concern that Mr. XXXXXXX might be capable of injurious and/or homicidal or suicidal behaviors. He had no previous history of confinement but was acting erratically after a party the previous week.

   A few days thereafter, there was a single-fatality fire at his complex. Several individuals were displaced as a result, to include Mr. XXXXXXX. His mental condition deteriorated, and he was reported via an anonymous tip. During a routine background check at the hospital, his military records were retrieved; except for his general service record in-country and Honorable Discharge status, they are sealed and require Top Secret clearances.

   Officers arrived due to an emergency alarm at approx. 0402 hours on 16 March 1970. There was a violent confrontation by Mr. XXXXXX in progress. He had severely injured two orderlies, Mr. Charles and Mr. Avery. Both were unconscious but expected to survive. A fire of unknown origin had already been extinguished. Several other staff were in lockdown; the doctor-in-charge, Dr. Joseph Ward, had arrived on scene approx. fifteen minutes prior and engaged with the patient. Dr. Ward has still not been located at this time, 1538 hours, 16 March 1970.

   The scene was very bloody and disorganized (REFER TO CRIME SCENE PHOTOS), and emergency services were contacted. Mr. XXXXXX was taken into custody and interrogated at the hospital under heightened security. Patient was exhibiting a variety of bizarre tics and other indescribable afflictions and growths, as well as apparently self-inflicted thermal injuries of a serious nature. REFER TO FILM AND AUDIO DEPOSITION.


   A partial transcription follows, as an example of the content of the testimony:


OFC GARNER: “You feel you're not ‘insane.’ But—”
MR. XXXXXX: “No, but he is not entirely sane at this point—”
OFC GARNER: “I thought you said he’s you? Your twin brother?”
MR. XXXXXX: “Yes. Genetically. We were still individuals in the before. However, we share a merged consciousness now, due to Ward’s actions.”
OFC GARNER: “So, you're saying he is your twin? But from the past?”
MR. XXXXXX: “No—he's me. From the future. From 1996. And my twin, yes. We are siblings as well as ancestors to one another, and so much more, now… since we decided to meld…”

 

   Mr. XXXXXX further claims that he was previously the victim of a radical government mind control experiment. He also stated that he finally remembered Dr. Ward was the one who had performed these experiments on him when he was enlisted, during anonymous trials. He said it was a form of “mind rape” and that he had been “mentally invaded.” These claims are so far unsubstantiated. Mr. XXXXXX also states that Dr. Ward has been “ingested” and has “joined us in our mind.” In fact, he has given the doctor partial awareness of “their” mind, and that he had to be “taken in” because his twin brother had been tortured in another similar experiment while enlisted and likewise “psychically abused.” He said “absorbing” Dr. Ward was punishment for his actions, because the so-called experiments had “unleashed a great power that had destroyed our lives as a result.”

   As noted, Dr. Ward has not been located yet, though his clothes have been; they were singed, bloody, but no other signs of the doctor, so they were collected as evidence and sent to the state crime lab for forensics testing. The body at the apartment fire—assumed to be Mr. XXXXXX’s brother—has not been conclusively identified at this time, either. 


15 March 2020


   “So, no charges were ever brought?”

   Arthur shook his head. “For what? Nobody even knows what this thing is. Is it Wingate? The brother? Ward? None of them? Something else? They never found Ward’s body, and they never figured out who died in the fire. Or if there was any MK-Ultra connection. I mean… it’s real Deep State shit, y’know?”

   The new recruit, Adam, shook his head. “Yeah. Like those chemical tanks they found in Louisville a while back.”

   “Oh, yeah… heard about that. Saw a documentary on it once.”

   The two men walked down the long corridor, their heels clacking in the sterile confines of the brightly lit hallway. They passed several unused cells as they approached the final door at the very end.

   Adam: “If this guy’s so weird and powerful, how can he be kept locked up? Why doesn’t he just like… escape with all these outlandish abilities and stuff?”

   Arthur chuckled. “I know. Seems crazy to me, too. Bullshit, I think. But they say he wants to stay here. Calls it a ‘prison within a prison.’ That he said he could get out, but he wants to stay to ‘punish Dr. Ward.’ That his brother is helping him keep Ward… ‘locked inside’ or whatever, because Ward allegedly fucked him up, too, another time. Split his mind apart. That’s what Mark told me, anyway. Claims he read the full report, uncensored. Not sure I buy that, but whatever. Seems kooky to me.”

   Adam nodded. “I know, right? OK, so maybe they uploaded his mind or something. I heard they were close to doing that. Maybe they tried it on him, early on, I mean, as an experiment. Or something like it.”

   Arthur shivered. “Experiments. Yeah, like the damned Nazis. Tuskegee. MK-Ultra. Man, that really creeps me out. Drugging you. Infecting you with shit. Uploading your mind? That’s not really even you anymore!”

   “Sure it is, it’s an exact copy! Holographic! There’s other ways to mess people up, too. Drugs can, sure, but so can digital simulacra. Virtual Reality will be doing it soon. And AI. Machine Learning… We won’t have mental illness in the future, I bet, because we’ll be able to cure it with pills and wetware reboots. Like my cousin… he had a bad trip once on LSD or Molly or something and decided to go off into the desert. Never heard from him again. Mom said he lost his mind. Lose your memories, lose your identity, so back all that up to a hard drive. Or the cloud, even, then they can download you… kinda what Facebook’s doing anyway. Then, instead of getting old, just replace parts with bionics, or robotics. Even clone your body. Take stem cells and regrow you—”

   “No. Way. It’s not ‘you’ anymore! It’s a Ship of Theseus problem… That stem cell situation is weird, too. Reminds me of the old ‘essential saltes’ thing from that Lovecraft story I mentioned. Sorta the same idea. ‘Cept now we can do it! Too weird for me…”

   Adam chuckled, shrugging. “Getting old, huh? You been here since 1996? That’s a long time. Might be time to think about life extension, dude.”

   Arthur laughed. “You kids today. You crack me up! You never even read Lovecraft, I bet. So much cool tech, medical advancements—”

   “Lovecraft? I heard that guy was a racist. My father really liked his stuff, but no, never read him… I like videogames.”

   They paused at the final door in the hall.

   “Don’t judge, Adam. Learn to keep the art and the artist separated or you’ll wind up hatin’ everything. At least check it out! So, anyway, like I was saying, you got nothing to concern yourself about, not like in the old days. Damn, we had AIDS. Ronald Reagan. Nuclear Winter. Chernobyl. The Reds. Y2K. 9/11. What do you folks have to worry about? Internet mobs? Sticks and stones! Social media? That stuff’s for idiots anyway. COVID-19? Give me a break. That’s just a cold! And what’s so bad about online porn? Damn, we had to sneak around with magazines…” Arthur hefted the baton, shaking his head. “Right, so back to work. Remember, just ignore the freaky stuff, like I told you. Take the precautions. No close contact touching. And never turn your back on it…

   “Now, we’re going in… suit up.”

 
 

 


(To the memory of

Dan O’Bannon)






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David Niall Wilson). Her most
recent book, Barfodder: Poetry
Written in Dark Bars and Questionable
Cafes, has been hailed by Publisher's
Weekly as "Bukowski meets Lovecraft..."
in January of 2009. She lives and
writes in San Francisco, performing
spoken word at events around the
country. 877-DRK-POEM -




Blag Dahlia's
armed to the teeth
with LIPSTICK



BLAG DAHLIA is a Rock Legend.
Singer, Songwriter, producer &
founder of the notorious DWARVES.
He has written two novels, ‘NINA’ and
‘ARMED to the TEETH with LIPSTICK’.


G. Alden Davis's
THE FOLD


G. Alden Davis wrote his first short story
in high school, and received a creative
writing scholarship for the effort. Soon
afterward he discovered that words were
not enough, and left for art school. He was
awarded the Emeritus Fellowship along
with his BFA from Memphis College of Art
in '94, and entered the videogame industry
as a team leader and 3D artist. He has over
25 published games to his credit. Mr. Davis
is a Burningman participant of 14 years,
and he swings a mean sword in the SCA.
He's also the best friend I ever had. He
was taken away from us last year on Jan
25 and I'll never be able to understand why.
Together we were a fantastic duo, the
legendary Grub Bros. Our secret base
exists on a cross-hatched nexus between
the Year of the Dragon and Dark City.
Somewhere along the tectonic fault
lines of our electromagnetic gathering,
shades of us peel off from the coruscating
pillars and are dropped back into the mix.
The phrase "rest in peace" just bugs me.
I'd rather think that Greg Grub's inimitable
spirit somehow continues evolving along
another manifestation of light itself, a
purple shift shall we say into another
phase of our expanding universe. I
ask myself, is it wishful thinking?
Will we really shed our human skin
like a discarded chrysalis and emerge
shimmering on another wavelength
altogether--or even manifest right
here among the rest without their
even beginning to suspect it? Well
people do believe in ghosts, but I
myself have long been suspicious
there can only be one single ghost
and that's all the stars in the universe
shrinking away into a withering heart
glittering and winking at us like
lost diamonds still echoing all their
sad and lonely songs fallen on deaf
eyes and ears blind to their colorful
emanations. My grub brother always
knew better than what the limits
of this old world taught him. We
explored past the outer peripheries
of our comfort zones to awaken
the terror in our minds and keep
us on our toes deep in the forest
in the middle of the night. The owls
led our way and the wilderness
transformed into a sanctuary.
The adventures we shared together
will always remain tattooed on
the pages of my skin. They tell a
story that we began together and
which continues being woven to
this very day. It's the same old
story about how we all were in
this together and how each and
every one of us is also going away
someday and though it will be the far-
thest we can manage to tell our own
tale we may rest assured it will be
continued like one of the old pulp
serials by all our friends which survive
us and manage to continue
the saga whispering in the wind.

Shae Sveniker's
A NEW METAPHYSICAL STUDY
REGARDING THE BEHAVIOR
OF PLANT LIFE


Shae is a poet/artist/student and former
resident of the Salt Pit, UT, currently living
in Simi Valley, CA. His short stories are on
Blogger and his poetry is hosted on Livejournal.


Nigel Strange's
PLASTIC CHILDREN


Nigel Strange lives with his wife and
daughter, cats, and tiny dog-like thing
in their home in California where he
occasionally experiments recreationally
with lucidity. PLASTIC CHILDREN
is his first publication.